I decided for Easter this year, (and Christmas as well) that I wanted to be more Christ centered, to focus on the purpose we celebrate these holidays. So on Palm Sunday (we dont actually observe Palm Sunday, but I wanted to focus on the whole week leading up to the resurrection), I gathered D and the kids and I read from the scriptures what Jesus did on that day before his resurrection. We have continued it so far the rest of the week, and although it is a simple thing and only a few verses that we are reading, I feel closer to Jesus and the spirit.
I believe as a part of this extra spirit in our home, I have noticed...I guess that is the right word... that I am not being the mother I know I can be. I have been thinking a lot about the time that I spend with the kids and what I have been doing with them, and...I am not sure how to say this with out it making it sound like I am putting myself down, because I am not, but...
I am not putting my full effort in.
And I really dont want to put blame on anyone or anything, but I do know that a reason for this laziness is because of the internet. Take for example Pinterest. Although it is awesome and can give you so many ideas that you never would have though about, and I do think I may continue to use it if I am looking for anything in particular, I think it has made people more lazy. We sit on the computer or on our phone for hours just pinning all these wonderful ideas that we will "someday do". How many of us have pinned stuff and then just dreamed about it, never actually putting it into action? Not only that, I tried to remember the days before Pinterest, before the internet even. What did we do, what did our parents and teachers do when they had to think of something for us to do, or a solution to a problem? We had to use our CREATIVITY. I know I have it in there somewhere.
But creativity is a like a muscle. It only gets stronger when we use it.
I was thinking back to when I was a kid, and I was pretty creative, just like L. That girl can come up with the most creative things, and she doesnt have pinterest to refer to. I am going to focus on getting creative with my kids, not just stealing other people's ideas.
Along with Pinterest, the internet has made us lazy in our communication with others. I had a presentation that I had to do in I think it was psychology, and I chose to do it on just this topic. What I came up with was this, (in a nutshell). The internet ruins our communication in two ways: we lose our communication skills with those we are speaking to on the internet, because we are relying on internet to do it for us. For example...facebook. We are relying on that little communication tool to tell us what are friends are doing, what has happened to them, and so on. We have gotten lazy to the fact that we cant call them up on the phone anymore, or send them an actual letter.
Second the internet is ruining the way we communicate with our family and friends close to us. As I look back at the past week for example, I have had my phone right there like a constant companion. I am really embarrassed to be saying this, that I was (probably still am) so dependent on that little box. Last night I
made a decision though. I deleted the facebook app from my phone as well as any game app that took too much of my time. (Today has been a very interesting day, I had realized how much I look at my phone for those things. I have picked up my phone probably 20 times to look at facebook, only to remember that it wasnt there. Can anyone say ADDICTION?!) I am also going to be getting rid of my facebook account altogether probably in a week. I am going to give people time to send me their email addresses if they want to contact me or if they want me to add them to my blog.
I am going to strive to be better at communicating in the way that we used to and I am going to focus on keeping my blog up to date instead of writing it all on facebook. And I am going to focus on being involved with my kids.
I am going to be a deliberate mother. Because that is what my kids deserve.